Josh, Mandi, M'Tali, Dallin, Dakoda, Logan, & Easton: Kodas 5th Birthday!!

Today was Kodas 5th birthday. We went to the cabin over the weekend, and then came home and had a party with some of my family..Thanks Uncle Tanner, Aunt Becky, Zack, Levi, Grandma, and Papa for coming to my party it was really fun!!! He really loves hotwheels!! I can't believe he's five...what a cutie!! While we were cutting the cake Aunt Becky told you to smell the cake to see if it smelled like an orange, while you were smelling it she pushed your face in it...you thought it was so funny!!

BEFORE I WAS A MOM!!!

Before I was a mom..I cooked and ate hot meals, I wore unstained clothing, brushed my hair and teeth everyday, and I had quiet conversations on the phone. Before I was a mom..My house stayed clean for days after I cleaned it, I didn't worry if my plants were poisonous, and I never tripped over toys, color book, or piles of shoes. Before I was a mom.. I have never been puked on, pooped on, drooled on, chewed on, peed on, or pinched by tiny fingers. I Had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I always got a full night's sleep. Before I was a mom.. I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do test or give shots. I Never looked into teary eyes and cried. I Never felt my heart brake into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. Before I was a mom.. I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. I never felt gloriously happy over a simple grin, and I never knew that I could love someone so much. Before I was a mom.. I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby, and I didn't know that bond between Mother and her child. Before I was a mom.. I didn't know someone so small could make me feel so important. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, and the happiness of being a mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much... Before I was a Mom.